why do we do this to ourselves?
I spent $6.50 monthly on this blogging website so that my blogs have a chance of maybe showing up to other people. I don't know why. I think I'm so desperate to be seen, and noticed, and taken in. That's why I chose music as a hobby. People see you when you perform, and although performing isn't my favorite thing ever, I like making music, and I like sharing it with the small amount of people who listen. I'm beginning to think everybody on this planet (myself included) is an idiot of some capacity. And I think people who believe in organized religion are some of the biggest idiots of all. Like I said in my last post, we're deeply in need of comfort. I understand religion gives us that comfort, because if you live a perfect life and then die, you think you're going to go to heaven. It's strange that life is the preface for death. You make your life worth living so that you can have eternal happiness, but isn't it worth it to just be happy for the 80 years you have? I think that if there is any concept of a God, she would be disappointed we expect more from her than the life she already gave us. People think that they deserve a reward for living when living was the reward. I understand that's wildly privileged to say, because for some people living isn't a reward, but in that case it proves my point more. 'God loves everybody' but people are starving every day and gun violence is killing kids? Or maybe 'everybody' is just cis, straight, white people. This is dangerous territory to be posting, because people are sensitive about this. I'm saying stuff that's been said a million times before but it's been existing in my head and I just needed to express it. I don't want to go anywhere (but I'm in dangerous territory) P